Ok, I've chilled out already XD So I'll do the return post now ^^
Welcome everyone! *Opens arms* Yeah, so I'm back ^^ And uhhh... I'll do my best to post as much as I can (dammit, I'll have to think of funny stuff <- not easy ><)
Anyways to keep you updated on my [adjective that I have not thouht of yet] life, the holidays have just about ended and now school's started already (which is ok i suppose, both are kinda boring, but school is a good time-killer I s'pose).
So here's what I've been up to:
> Working (with a really nice pay ^^)
> Talking to Alpha, a very commited entertainer (that's just fabulous ^^)
> School homework, pretty easy stuff.
> Tutoring homework (there's quite a lot I have to get through ><)
> M-M-M-MAPLESTORY! I love that game now, really nice entertainment ^^ Alpha and Maplestory will complete my life (+work, which will provide me a steady income).
Things have been going pretty good all in all, but still there's empty gaps of my life which are just boredom >< (cos I'm not allowed to play Maplestory whenever I want).
Anyways, talking about school and academics, IT'S YEAR 12!!! That's what most people would be like, but not me. Cos I'm the lazy guy that's just like: "Wow, Year 12. *continues to play YGO cards/Maplestory/chatting to Alpha*" Lol, yup that me ^^ I got a pretty optimistic view of my life still, I mean HSC (the University Admission Test thing) can't be that hard can it? I'm already pretty decent at all my subjects ^^ I'll work harder later (as if XD), too tired now.
On the ISFJ Long-Term-Relationship rushing, still getting nowhere, lol XD It's pretty painful when I think about the someone i'm supposed to be with so I try not to think about it too much *not thinking, not thinking* XD I'll find someone eventually, Destiny will choose for me ^^
*Checks Alpha* Oh, shit. I better go, I think she's dead or something - no response on MSN XD Joking, joking. Well, cya guys later ^^
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Really pissed atm.
Sorry everyone won't be doing a return post today (probs will do it tomoz), really pissed at the moment so that's the reason.
> My computer was being freaking laggy.
> I wasted my time in Maplestory.
Mainly the first one. I get really angry when my computer lags, and it does that all time...
Anyways, I'll do a post when I can (and when I've chilled out).
Yeah, cyaz.
> My computer was being freaking laggy.
> I wasted my time in Maplestory.
Mainly the first one. I get really angry when my computer lags, and it does that all time...
Anyways, I'll do a post when I can (and when I've chilled out).
Yeah, cyaz.
Monday, January 18, 2010
He is not dead.
I must admit to all that the ISFJ in myself is still not dead and that the desires I once had still exist and resurface occasionally. Perhaps it is a good thing to keep this balance between my current state and the ISFJ in me. Or perhaps I am simply foolish enough to risk downfall once again.
I can assure you, you who know you are, that despite this dark and uncaring demeanor I now have, there is no doubt that if you are in danger that the ISFJ in myself will break through my consciousness and whether you wish it or not I will protect you with everything I have. Perhaps you may think I do not care for you anymore but you would be wrong because there is a part of me that still cherishes the desires and possibilities of the future you gave me, leading the ISFJ in me to think that it was not completely a downfall.
Whatever be the link between us, the relationship, whether it be friends, my confidants, my sister, my betrothed, I will always be watching over you. I will be the lone wolf that hides in the shadows, only to watch over the one that means most to him, without you knowing. I will be that Guardian Angel, silent but watching, protective, serving.
Lone Wolf.
I can assure you, you who know you are, that despite this dark and uncaring demeanor I now have, there is no doubt that if you are in danger that the ISFJ in myself will break through my consciousness and whether you wish it or not I will protect you with everything I have. Perhaps you may think I do not care for you anymore but you would be wrong because there is a part of me that still cherishes the desires and possibilities of the future you gave me, leading the ISFJ in me to think that it was not completely a downfall.
Whatever be the link between us, the relationship, whether it be friends, my confidants, my sister, my betrothed, I will always be watching over you. I will be the lone wolf that hides in the shadows, only to watch over the one that means most to him, without you knowing. I will be that Guardian Angel, silent but watching, protective, serving.
Lone Wolf.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Lone Wolf
How nice of you to visit again, dear readers. As the title suggests I am a lone wolf and a king that sits in a throne with only ghosts in his Kingdom.
I came to realise that I was not meant to be who I thought I was, the ridiculous one who cared for everyone close so much. I realised that I would only suffer and be driven insane if someone would get too close to me. My confidants are no longer my confidants because I expect too much and receive too little and my world collapsed upon itself to bring ruin only to me.
However I am a new person. I accept that I am meant to be just one person who is to live and care for nothing, to dream dreams and live those worlds of Imagination. There are packs of wolves and couples of wolves but I, I am the wolf that hunts by himself. I am that lone wolf.
I am the King that sits on his throne in an empty Kingdom entertained by the Jester that exist in my Imagination. And I command my servants that do not exist:
"A goblet of water, a plate of food,
Bring me whatever, that fits my mood."
This world is not my world. My world is in the Imagination where miracles happen, and where you can expect much and get more. And the battle of two personalities still rage within me, to become who I once was and be destined to fall and rot. Or to become a new one, uncaring, cruel, but he who shall never fall.
Shall I risk my destruction again, or encase myself in my world of Imagination?
Imaginator.
I came to realise that I was not meant to be who I thought I was, the ridiculous one who cared for everyone close so much. I realised that I would only suffer and be driven insane if someone would get too close to me. My confidants are no longer my confidants because I expect too much and receive too little and my world collapsed upon itself to bring ruin only to me.
However I am a new person. I accept that I am meant to be just one person who is to live and care for nothing, to dream dreams and live those worlds of Imagination. There are packs of wolves and couples of wolves but I, I am the wolf that hunts by himself. I am that lone wolf.
I am the King that sits on his throne in an empty Kingdom entertained by the Jester that exist in my Imagination. And I command my servants that do not exist:
"A goblet of water, a plate of food,
Bring me whatever, that fits my mood."
This world is not my world. My world is in the Imagination where miracles happen, and where you can expect much and get more. And the battle of two personalities still rage within me, to become who I once was and be destined to fall and rot. Or to become a new one, uncaring, cruel, but he who shall never fall.
Shall I risk my destruction again, or encase myself in my world of Imagination?
Imaginator.
Friday, January 15, 2010
Jesters.
Welcome again, readers. I am here because my Jester, the one who entertains me and who from now on shall be referred to as “Alpha” is temporarily unavailable. So henceforth I am here to entertain myself here by blogging about whatever I please.
I have had a few Jesters however some of them, “Epsilon”, “Gamma”, were redundant, they do not entertain myself anymore, or they are not committed enough to entertain me and thus have been ‘dismissed’. You perhaps see myself as a slave driver, however if you do wish to entertain me you will find out that it is not so hard, so long as you are committed enough for the job. I am still wondering what these Jesters gain from entertaining me, perhaps like myself, entertaining others entertains them. But whatever the reason they choose to entertain me, I am grateful for their effort.
Maybe you ask why I am so demanding, why must I have people to entertain me when games and movies are available? It is because mere games and movies are only temporary and mostly ineffective relief from my state of boredom. It takes brains and heart to entertain me, it is the same reason why you cannot replace a human with a computer – they are completely different things. People are intriguing, their personalities for me to study and take note, their details, habits, style. However of course, that is not all that entertains me, their words their spirit and life also provide me with my enjoyment.
Anyways, my readers, I am done talking and describing to you about my, perhaps, interesting or you may say strange or ridiculous entertainment methods of people. Until next time, readers.
Imaginator.
I have had a few Jesters however some of them, “Epsilon”, “Gamma”, were redundant, they do not entertain myself anymore, or they are not committed enough to entertain me and thus have been ‘dismissed’. You perhaps see myself as a slave driver, however if you do wish to entertain me you will find out that it is not so hard, so long as you are committed enough for the job. I am still wondering what these Jesters gain from entertaining me, perhaps like myself, entertaining others entertains them. But whatever the reason they choose to entertain me, I am grateful for their effort.
Maybe you ask why I am so demanding, why must I have people to entertain me when games and movies are available? It is because mere games and movies are only temporary and mostly ineffective relief from my state of boredom. It takes brains and heart to entertain me, it is the same reason why you cannot replace a human with a computer – they are completely different things. People are intriguing, their personalities for me to study and take note, their details, habits, style. However of course, that is not all that entertains me, their words their spirit and life also provide me with my enjoyment.
Anyways, my readers, I am done talking and describing to you about my, perhaps, interesting or you may say strange or ridiculous entertainment methods of people. Until next time, readers.
Imaginator.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Change
Welcome once again, dear readers. I must admit it has been quite a while since I have posted. Things are changing and I must keep up with the ride. However let me update you on my life, I will, of course not go into the details as there is quite some privacy concerned.
As I have said, things are changing and my situation now is perhaps a little fuzzy. If life is full of surprises, I suppose this is one of them. Not only am I feeling less and less miserable by the day, I am also feeling more and more powerful. I will no longer be the pathetic scrap that lies on the ground crawling, nor will I return back to the original ‘Freepoints’. I have been reborn, fellows.
I have said before, life is a game. That much is true, and I will no doubt not fall loser to be game, but shall claim victory with ease. The rules of this little game I play have changed and so must I in order to make fit myself for the prize. These ridiculous details and desires I once had in my life are pieces of pathetic memory worth discarding – if I could discard them.
Have I changed for the better or worse? That is for you to find out, and then decide, dear readers. You may think already now, I sound dark and perhaps evidently evil, but is that really my present form? Take a thought, readers. I am not who I once was.
Imaginator.
As I have said, things are changing and my situation now is perhaps a little fuzzy. If life is full of surprises, I suppose this is one of them. Not only am I feeling less and less miserable by the day, I am also feeling more and more powerful. I will no longer be the pathetic scrap that lies on the ground crawling, nor will I return back to the original ‘Freepoints’. I have been reborn, fellows.
I have said before, life is a game. That much is true, and I will no doubt not fall loser to be game, but shall claim victory with ease. The rules of this little game I play have changed and so must I in order to make fit myself for the prize. These ridiculous details and desires I once had in my life are pieces of pathetic memory worth discarding – if I could discard them.
Have I changed for the better or worse? That is for you to find out, and then decide, dear readers. You may think already now, I sound dark and perhaps evidently evil, but is that really my present form? Take a thought, readers. I am not who I once was.
Imaginator.
Monday, January 11, 2010
White Blood Cells.
Ok, so you probably know quite a bit about the human body. White Blood Cells, or leukocytes are the cells in your body that are made to protect you against harmful bacteria and viruses. If you knew me two years ago, you would know that I like always have what seems like a cold. Every day I don't go out, I get this 'cold' (Weekends and Holidays). Once I had this "cold" for like half a year, non-stop (Even when I went outside). It's gotten quite a bit better now, but it's still not completely gone.
About a year ago I went to see the doctor to have it diagnosed (after it affecting me for like 3 months). And apparently it wasn't a cold but hayfever. So I got Antibodies, medicine, nosesprays and all kind of shit for it, lol. None of it worked, which was pretty lol XD
Personally I think my WBCs (White Blood Cells) are cooperating with this Hayfever virus/bacteria. Like seriously having a mutalistic symbiotic relationship (where both get something out of each other) cos there'd be no way after 6 months with the help of antibodies and medicine it had not healed. So yeah, that's what I'm thinking, lol.
There is another possible explaination. That my WBCs just suck against Hayfever. It might be like a pokemon weakness thing. *Hayfever attacks Shinichi -> IT'S SUPER EFFECTIVE!* Yeah, like that.
Some of you may have heard of this but apparently humans are subconsciously attracted to someone of opposite sex with a genetic makeup that completes their own - so when they have a child, that child is covered against both of its parent's weaknesses. Well, seriously if that's true, my partner is gonna be like Hayfever Tank, like *BOOM! ANTI-HAYFEVER MISSILE!* cos personally I suck against Hayfever (though I do seem to be pretty well equipped against everything else ^^)
Recently, after the weekday-hayfever has healed for quite some time (the weekend hayfever is still going), it's kinda coming back (probs cos it's the holidays) and I spend like the whole morning sneezing ---" which does in fact piss me off!
Anyways, that's bascially it for this post ^^ and if you are Ms Hayfever Tank, feel free to contact me ^^ JKJK XD
Have a time, guys.
About a year ago I went to see the doctor to have it diagnosed (after it affecting me for like 3 months). And apparently it wasn't a cold but hayfever. So I got Antibodies, medicine, nosesprays and all kind of shit for it, lol. None of it worked, which was pretty lol XD
Personally I think my WBCs (White Blood Cells) are cooperating with this Hayfever virus/bacteria. Like seriously having a mutalistic symbiotic relationship (where both get something out of each other) cos there'd be no way after 6 months with the help of antibodies and medicine it had not healed. So yeah, that's what I'm thinking, lol.
There is another possible explaination. That my WBCs just suck against Hayfever. It might be like a pokemon weakness thing. *Hayfever attacks Shinichi -> IT'S SUPER EFFECTIVE!* Yeah, like that.
Some of you may have heard of this but apparently humans are subconsciously attracted to someone of opposite sex with a genetic makeup that completes their own - so when they have a child, that child is covered against both of its parent's weaknesses. Well, seriously if that's true, my partner is gonna be like Hayfever Tank, like *BOOM! ANTI-HAYFEVER MISSILE!* cos personally I suck against Hayfever (though I do seem to be pretty well equipped against everything else ^^)
Recently, after the weekday-hayfever has healed for quite some time (the weekend hayfever is still going), it's kinda coming back (probs cos it's the holidays) and I spend like the whole morning sneezing ---" which does in fact piss me off!
Anyways, that's bascially it for this post ^^ and if you are Ms Hayfever Tank, feel free to contact me ^^ JKJK XD
Have a time, guys.
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